my husbands cousin wrote a very good piece about asking yourself questions about why you do the things you do and a little about why we handle grief and how we handle grief. i felt this writing was awesome . it really made me think. it went something like this.the scripture came from Mathew 14:13-14 now when Jesus heard this,he withdrew from there in a boat to a deserted place apart. when the multitudes heard it , they followed him on foot from the cities. Jesus went out, and he saw and had compassion on them,and healed their sick. and based on this scripture and from john 11:35 why did Jesus weep. well we no when Jesus heard about his friend and relative john the baptist dieing or being beheaded. even worse this grieved him greatly so he pulled to his self as so many of us do when we hurt. and we question the why and how fors of it all. even though Jesus was Gods son is Gods son he still felt the pain of his loved one lost. just as my husbands cousin still feels the pain of his brothers loss for he truly isn't lost but has found his place in heaven just as Jesus cousin found his. but someone passing always grieves us and when it's tragic even more john lost his head Ronnie was killed tragically by a deer running in front of his motorcycle, both tragic both loved Jesus dearly and both family members grieved greatly and just as Jesus Had thoughes who loved and wanted to help him. my cousin has a good support group, also we ask our selves though, why do we get angry, why do we fill cheated ,why do we react badly towards loss or just life in general. some times the answers are there sometimes there not. In gene piece he also mentions how Jesus took compassion on the ones who came to see him, even in his pain he found time to put his needs aside and help those around him, in this way he healed his hurt just like gene is being healed by helping his family and friends he is receiving his inner healing . we or i may never know why i react the way i do to life. but it is our scars our imperfections that draws the outside in. being perfect, is OK to make a goal for or to shoot for, but it's our scars our imperfections that draws people to us. it gives them comfort to know that you don't have to be right all the time or make all the right decisions. so long as you don't forget who can really bring you past yourself. that is Jesus.so gene you did good and keep on keeping on. you mentioned about the people who come to your church might be a Little ruff around the edges. well i seem to remember a story about a wedding no one wanted to attend, so the father had his servant gather all the most unlikely crowd and dressed them, because they came willingly and they were rewarded with the greatest reward of all . life eternal god wants us scars and all. so come all ye people unto my shelter and i will give you rest. ask all the questions you want and make as many mistakes failing is not failure but growth. so come on I'm here and i understand. i do have you in my hand my heart and my love.
