scars and all

my husbands cousin wrote a very good piece about asking yourself questions about why you do the things you do and a little about why we handle grief and how we handle grief. i felt this writing was awesome . it really made me think. it went something like this.the scripture came from Mathew 14:13-14 now when Jesus heard this,he withdrew from there in a boat to a deserted place apart. when the multitudes heard it , they followed him on foot from the cities. Jesus went out, and he saw and had compassion on them,and healed their sick. and based on this scripture and from john 11:35 why did Jesus weep. well we no when Jesus heard about his friend and relative john the baptist dieing or being beheaded. even worse this grieved him greatly so he pulled to his self as so many of us do when we hurt. and we question the why and how fors of it all. even though Jesus was Gods son is Gods son he still felt the pain of his loved one lost. just as my husbands cousin still feels the pain of his brothers loss for he truly isn't lost but has found his place in heaven just as Jesus cousin found his. but someone passing always grieves us and when it's tragic even more john lost his head Ronnie was killed tragically by a deer running in front of his motorcycle, both tragic both loved Jesus dearly and both family members grieved greatly and just as Jesus Had thoughes who loved and wanted to help him. my cousin has a good support group, also we ask our selves though, why do we get angry, why do we fill cheated ,why do we react badly towards loss or just life in general. some times the answers are there sometimes there not. In gene piece he also mentions how Jesus took compassion on the ones who came to see him, even in his pain he found time to put his needs aside and help those around him, in this way he healed his hurt just like gene is being healed by helping his family and friends he is receiving his inner healing . we or i may never know why i react the way i do to life. but it is our scars our imperfections that draws the outside in. being perfect, is OK to make a goal for or to shoot for, but it's our scars our imperfections that draws people to us. it gives them comfort to know that you don't have to be right all the time or make all the right decisions. so long as you don't forget who can really bring you past yourself. that is Jesus.so gene you did good and keep on keeping on. you mentioned about the people who come to your church might be a Little ruff around the edges. well i seem to remember a story about a wedding no one wanted to attend, so the father had his servant gather all the most unlikely crowd and dressed them, because they came willingly and they were rewarded with the greatest reward of all . life eternal god wants us scars and all. so come all ye people unto my shelter and i will give you rest. ask all the questions you want and make as many mistakes failing is not failure but growth. so come on I'm here and i understand. i do have you in my hand my heart and my love.

not much to say

i have been so busy lately we had a big thanksgiving ate to much and had lots of family around we love our extended family also. now i am preparing for the Christmas dinner at our church and here in my home everyone will be here so we've decided to do this in our garage and now we have to rearrange it for everyone to fit heat it and decorate crazy yes fun maybe but worth it most definitely i love Christmas it's fun but i also love celebrating the birth of king Jesus he is the reason for the season but he is the reason for all seasons. i want to celebrate his life every day. god has been opening a lot of doors for us lately and i am still praying for that miracle my special request and i know it will come god said so. i believe it . i may not have allot of money to spend for gifts but god has given me the greatest gift of all his son and he has given me so much more. well keep praying keep laughing keep on keepin on because god is the only way out the only way up the only way through. Jesus knew this and loved his father for it he gave his life for us and lived his life for us through his father for us . so don't put self first put him first and all else will follow amen.

In the crest of his hand

the holy ghost spoke this at Sunday service and God has truly proved this statement this week. my husband is a truck driver he halls a flatbed which carries steel and lumber. this week he picked up a load of flat steel it wasn't loaded properly and he noticed this when he had stopped in Huston to see his mother for about and hour or so. he called me very worried about it he said part of his load had shifted to the front and would have to stop in at his terminal in Little rock to get it fixed. little did he know that not only had the load shifted but it had cut through some of the straps holding the load in place and had broken a few of the chains just before he made it to the yard he called again for me to pray and pray i did he still did not know at this point and time just how bad it was i prayed all last night and this morning when i heard the desperation in my husbands voice i knew something was wrong when he arrived at his yard and they began to reload the steel that is when the tail of how serious this could have been my husband could have lost his life and so could many others who passed if this load had of broken loose. yes God does have his children in the crest of his hand. and he will NEVER let us go . my husband is alive today because of Gods powerful love for him and countless others so yes i have much to be thankful for. we are heading to north Carolina tomorrow for the holidays and to pick up a friend and bring her back home. because of the problems with my husbands load they had to move up the delivery date to Monday. so we get to leave a day earlier which maybe the holiday traffic wont be as bad well maybe . pray for our safety everyone have a safe and stress free thanksgiving God Bless.

what am i thankful for?

what am i thankful for? in gods word it is important to remember why you are thankful. i believe i have many things to be thankful for a loving husband who gets me, a good family adopted and blood relations also. in church today my friend and extended family member sang a wonderful song that really touched my husbands heart i am thankful for this i have been praying for my husbands walk with god and Carrie my friend you helped a bunch today my husband as many others has many scars and wounds and god is letting him know that he is the healer of all ills and he is worthy to be loved by him i am thankful for this and you for allowing the holy spirit to use you in ways such as this. thank you. even though i was dragging i enjoyed feeding 53 people last night for and early thanks giving i was thankful to see that much love and differences of opions shared whether we wanted it or not ha! ha! but for real family is the most important focus point and we must fight to keep it alive and close don't allow the devil to steal away one more moment with each other the family unit is becoming and in dangered species we must take them off the in dangered list god created the family unit it's up to us to listen to gods leading and save our families and our extended family also. you god says what concerns us concerns him, but what about what concerns him should concern us? lets show our thankfulness by and desire to hear gods heart and be gods heart lets live his concerns for he already knows ours. i am thankful for him for you and for my family amen. happy thanks giving.

psalms 23

"the lord is my Shepard; i shall not want. he maketh me to lie down in green pastures:he leadeth me besides still waters. he restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of rightousness for his name sake. yea,thoough i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil:for thou art with me.thou preparest a table before me in the presence of my enemies: thou anointest my head with oil;my cup runneth over.surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:and i will dwell in the house of the lord for ever." when i read this it truly encourages me to know that no matter what Jesus is there for me he gives great comfort in knowing as long as i am obedient to him and his truths i will receive such a reward as heaven and a place with him. i look forward to the day . i have been having a bit of a ruff time of things not knowing which direction my husband and i are to take where god wants us to be and were and win he will show me but i know gods promises are sure and he will not let me down there is a place for me and my husband in his work our lives are in his hands and he keeps us safe from our enemies especially our number one enemies Satan. and i know our financial situation will improve because even in the valleys there is springs of refreshing and he lays out our paths and keeps us straight. and no mater what he is always there. as long as we remain in him true honest obedient and faithful.

romans 8:38-39

Romans 8:38-39 -" for i am persuaded,that neither death,nor life, nor principalities,nor powers,nor things present,nor things to come,nor height,nor depth,nor any other creature,shall be able to separate us from the love of god,which is in Christ Jesus our lord. " this gives me great comfort and a bold desire to step forward and never look back at my past though it may have it's good points and i pray i learn from my mistakes i know god is there always in front leading me and his sweet spirit has my back Jesus my hand and whom he has no one thing person or Satan himself can rip from him. i know my past doesn't matter to him my sins are forgiven and no matter what Satan throws my way i will and shall overcome. because of him i am able to let go and hang on to him the deliverer . some days i have such trouble understanding which way i am to go, have you ever been there? but then god reminds me it isn't for me to always know but to trust in him. trust that is such a hard thing for a mere human but it can be done we trust in a lot of non essential things all the time why not him? god is the only way for me and knowing that gives me great comfort and desire to live life to the fullest. and it makes my heart sing."so we thy people, and the sheep of thy pasture shall give thanks unto thee for ever, we shall show forth thy praises to all thy generation."ps79:13

in the mist

some times healing comes in the mist, it sprays a refreshing in our souls, God knows just how and when to do this.His mist, his freshness is precious and sometimes IT comes in a big rain ,how ever it comes it comes. but for the most part he comes gently as mist, softly as a mist and takes us out of the fog we call life. and clears everything up for us. just ask, just focus- on the mist of Gods blessings there always there. Be a seeker of the mist of Gods gentleness and the soft yet strong voice of God it's there it's here it's now in the mist of Gods love and breath.

good bye ronnie your missed

i went to grant Alabama for a week while i was there one of my husbands cosines was killed in a tragic accident he was a preacher and a loving father my husband was and is heart broken over this matter we both know Ronnie is in heaven but the idea of him being gone isn't easy for his family or his friends Ronnie loved god dearly and his family was important he was dedicated to his work for god and he loved his bike he road it religiously it's a tragic thing when you loose someone you love whether it be a brother son daughter mother father husband or wife but one thing we all know Christ heals and when the one you love is taken and they have god in there life there not really gone there just waiting on the other side for us to meet at that great camp meeting in the air . so we must hold on and keep working for that wondrous goal and help others to realize there place in the fathers kingdom gene we love you and your family our prayers are with you hope you read this blog i never met your dear brother but Kelly described him so well and besides any child of god is a brother of mine. we some times forget that blood is thicker than water but so is the ties of Jesus they truly bind us together Ronnie knew this and lived by it may we be inspired to do the same. amen i hope that gods love truly envelopes this family let us all pray for there healing and give god the glory for there love for him. also that they be lifted up at this time . pray just pray. and praise god for his deliverance amen.

going to bama

on my way to alabamy but i don't have a banjo on my knee. please be praying for our trip we are going to see family and I'm going to visit my mothers grave. we are also in the middle of a youth revival and need your prayers i want and expect for god to move greatly in our church we also have many family curses and there is so much bondage in the lives of our families today that need to be broken . so please pray for the brake trough's that are needed and the releases also. god makes us his watered gardens but we have to want it pray for it expect it and share it . we need the rain so rain on me my family and my church lord and the world also on us and in us change for ever lord change forever. amen and so be it.

in the shadow of his presence

in the shadow of his presence i stand, all in aw of his majesty grand ,i look upon his face so sweet to know i can sit at the masters feet .my love soars high beyond the sky then i look into his eyes and i see his love for his family .my loyalty is tried and true to him i belong and forever to his hand will i cling for the joy of sitting at my fathers feet and his son to see ,and his son to meet ,so onward i go and onward i press to live love and do my best. so one day i may rest at my fathers feet and be complete in the shadow of his presence .i shall finally meet the master of all time and the great i am shall hold me close and know we are one. in the shadow of his presence i shall rest and sing hallelujah to the lamb glory to god in the highest. in the shadow of his presence i will bask to know at last i made it to the fathers throne. i am and always have been his own, always in the shadow of his presence . amen and so be it .

lifes little blessings

life's little blessings come in all sizes and shapes. not to long ago my husband and i were looking to buy this house in ward Arkansas , and had already given up our rental and were prepared to move in the house when it was sold out from under us.we had no idea where were going to live but god did he opened up a place for us through our good friend Louise Armstrong. it has been one blessing after another and we are getting closer to being out of debt. not to mention i feel god is making away for us to buy her home here in Beebe Arkansas. so never give up on your dreams or were you think god is taking you because his road is always the best and the safest. it truly has been a blessing for my husband and me living here and we are getting to know the family even better. plus my husband has never really known how a family really reacts or interacts with one another without trying to hurt each other. and god is opening his eyes through this precious family. to a whole world of goodness that he has never experienced. just another way of god blessing and imputing his grace and unmerited favor. in our lives . i praise god always in all ways possible amen amen and hallelujah.

the lamp

though life be dark and dreary there's a lamp in the distance. though life roads seems bleak there's a lamp in the distance. when life throws shadows upon your path there's a lamp in the distance. the light of hope has come and victory is one. i pray let me be your lamp lord, let me be your lamp, shine through me lord shine through me make me you lamp lord shine through me shine through the darkness so others might see shine through me lord ,shine through me. when i'm down and out and theres no one around ther's a lamp in the distance. when no one hears my shouts ther's a lamp in the distance. when life is beating me up ther's a lamp in the distance. when everything seems to fail there's a lamp in the distance. when all i have to do is call there;s a lamp in the distance. and all i have to is pull the switch and the light comes through. Jesus you are that lamp and you shine through me there need be no more darkness just light. so shine through me lord,shine through me , make me your lamp lord, shine through me, shine through the darkness so others might see, shine through me lord shine through me.

princess

once there was a beautiful maiden destined to be a princess,and there was a lad destined to be her prince. one day she spied this fine young lad he was a breathless creature so handsome and strong and she dared to think maybe some day maybe he will be mine then chance brought them together and as the relationship blossomed she began to see her dream coming closer to reality . and then one day the lad asked the question will you be my princess and she smiled with glee , and said yes ,yes oh yes. then there life together took off they had many happy times some sad. they bore to beautiful sons who in time gave them three beautiful grandchildren. now there life was even more complete. they had a ministry for God of a life time helped many subjects. there rain together was in there eyes, a rain of family legend. they loved the same things they shared the same dreams this lad loved his princess deeply and his children more and the princess wanted for nothing and the lad sheltered her from as much pain as possible. and shared all the joy she could handle and then some. his love for God out way ed everything else even though the princesses happiness meant everything to this handsome lad God meant more he searched him out daily went to any lengths to find him and because of this he was blessed with great insights and helped many. he became a great asset to the Lord and his work. His princess worked in tune with the lad so much so they were one heart beat, but one day God had to call the lad home this greatly saddened the princess for she felt cheated she said how am i supposed to carry on the rain without my prince and God said you wont he is in the sound of your heart beat he is there when you smile and he is there when you here your children speak he is there in your decisions he sings to you through the birds and nature for he loved it so. he is the work you do for me says the Lord. our prince has not left he is still here he asked me to keep watch over you and i will honor that request as i have for many. so princess just remember we have a kingdom to protect and i have gone on but you must take up were i had to leave off the work must be completed little girl . don't give up just look deep with in yourself and the great I am will always be there, but most of all so will i.keep putting the jewels in the crown little girl keep putting the jewels in the crown . you always were and will be my little princess. but some day you'll be my queen. may we rain together again . love your lad. and love you from heaven.

why self

you know God says we as humans really believe in self preservation ,and he keeps telling me that he is the only one who can preserve us from destruction, so i ask my self what keeps me from letting go it all boils down to trust. you know even children have the need to preserve. just as we begin to learn to walk if we fall or begin to we try to protect our selves from harm when all we have to do is reach out and trust in the hand of God to protect just as we rely on our parents to be there we must rely on Jesus we must trust the unseen hand. it's the unseen that scares me even though i know i have nothing to fear,why is that? is it because we fear as humans what we cant see we feel it has to be tangible if you can feel it touch it or taste if your five senses cant fix it or come in contact with it we fear it.if we don't understand it we run from it, if we cant grasp it we toss it aside.if it doesn't benefit us we don't want it even if it does we push it aside because we feel we know best we let self in the way, why is that i ask? why do i let little silly things in and bother me as if they were life threatening why do i behave the way i do ? i ask myself this a lot and all i can come up with is self i let self become to all important. now that i see the problem how do i fix this do i keep trying myself or do i let go really let go get rid of the safety nets and jump into the unknown head first no parachute no human life lines that I've put there and let god do what he is best at? sherry's feelings my feelings of me first or why me or my lack or capability of letting someone else namely the great I am taking full control of my life i say i want change it is time for it i have lived in self long enough i am not the fixer God is the fixer i am his legs arms eyes ears mouth but what i have forgotten is i am not my own and it isn't my job to fix everything and everyone isn't out to get me and it isn't there trust i need or my need to trust them i just need to trust the one and only one who matters and that is Jesus that is god the father the great I am i can either let go now or watch the rope break of human self preservation . i choose once and for all to let go to let God take full control it's the only choice the right choice. so God here is my written declaration i here by let go of self of pride and the me ,me attitude, i here by let go of all lives pains and disappointments, i let go of criticism , i let go of anger, bitterness, i let go of the desire to be boss, i let go of self indulgence, i let go of worry, worry for tomorrow, let go of worry for today, let go of worry for finance, i let go of self. God i need you to take control of me and change me from the inside my dependence is on you. so help me father to be what you have created me for just as Jesus gave you all i must do the same it is the only choice for me . do or die i must crucify self forever to the cross and i do this gladly. so good by self hello Jesus. take control heavenly Father change is pain full and even more so when self is involved but here i am and here it is . help me to not help myself but allow you to help me. wake up , look up , and get up to where my God is. amen

andrew the lighthouse

hello my name is Andrew and i am a lighthouse.I didn't always shine as brightly as i do now. once i was dark and nothing worked inside. a lot of ships wrecked when they came near my shores. so they quit coming by. i got so worried and lonely , one day i couldn't take it anymore. and i cried out if someone would help me i know that i could shine again. i know my friends the ships would come to the harbor once more. what can i do? someone please help me. well one day and old friend came to visit he knocked and Andrew said come in old friend.and so he did. my friend said what have you done to yourself.Andrew sadly replied nothing.everything just quit working and no one comes close anymore. Andrews friend said i can if you will let me. Andrew said oh please do please help help me old friend. his friend said it will take a lot of work and it may hurt a little and it may hurt a lot. Andrew said i don't care, i need help. so his friend said well we better get started then and his friends first job was cleaning up the mess below . and he began pulling out the old furniture and the wiring from the walls and the bad plumbing. Andrew said must that go it was old but I'm used to it, and why my wires that hurts when you pull that out not mention my pipes to.his friend said Andrew the furniture is not safe for your friends to sit on and the old wiring can cause much damage if they are not repaired your pipes have to be replaced so fresh water can be pumped in. Andrew said reluctantly OK, go ahead . and soon the bottom half of Andrew was clean and working again. old pains and sorrows gone. then his friend came to the stairs which led up to the top of course. and his friend ripped out one step after another replacing them with newer and much stronger ones. but it hurt so bad , Andrew complained cant you just patch it up why must you take it all out. Andrews friend replied i could patch it up new over old but it wouldn't hold for long and we'd be right back were we started. OK, said Andrew but Finnish quickly. and his friend said one step at a time my friend one step at a time. well finally it came time for Andrew upper half, and his friend looked around and he saw great possibilities. Andrew wasn't sure he wanted to his friend in on this floor. he would have to let go of all his comforts and his way of doing things. he began to feel resentful why must i give up so much. then rebellion reared it's ugly head i don't know old friend should i let you finish? then he started to feel some independence well i have been here for a long time on my own, why should stop now? and Andrews friend replied finishing helps you to know you can do anything with someone there to work with you, don't worry about why because you know it is really better for you, and can you see where you were before you got to where you are now. Andrew thought about this and while he was thinking his friend kept on working and then Andrew said my dear friend your right i do feel better and i do need you. just as Andrew said this my friend tripped the switch and i shined brighter than i ever had before. and everyone came back to see me my ship friends were not afraid of my shores. the rough edges were still there but my light shined and they could work around them. i told my friend please don't leave,please stay. and my friend said i never left and I'll always stay. love Jesus. from Sherry's quiet place