cant sleep

here i am sleepless and my mind wondering all over the place . well what does one do when this time arises you can lay there driving yourself crazy tossing to and fro or you can get up read a book even the good book the bible always Good choice you can pray until you fill you've reached a point where you and god are on a good vibe together all these are fairly good things to do prayer is always good reading gods word even better. and sometimes getting to yourself and talking one on one not exactly praying but just having and up front open conversation with the big guy unloading everything that is either bothering you or you just need some private time with father god no one listening no TVs blaring in the back ground no radios no children pulling at your shirts saying Mommy or daddy just you and god talking to each other really listening for that inner voice him speaking to you and your really listening for a change . then when you've aired your grievances and you unloaded yourself you sit there and really listen in the quiet stillness and all of a sudden peace sweet unbridled silence and then you hear it he speaks you listen and everything clicks and all of a sudden the true peace full blissful sleep comes over you your eyes grow heavy your body relaxes and before you know it your back in bed all is well in the world and out you go. not sure why I'm writing this just wanted to i guess. sometimes we get so busy and we put to much on our plates we don't seem to make room for what really matters and that's the quiet times with our heavenly father, sometimes we only allow enough time for a hello but we don't really wait for the how are you or god what can i do for you today who do i need to bless today by you working through me to touch them and buy the Way god i just want to talk to you just a casual conversation i don't need anything just want to talk to you in general. we sometimes forget god doesn't just want to pull us out of the stupideness we we may have brought on ourselves or just be our healer or the give me give me he isn't Santa he god he's our friend simple heart to heart talk but we busy our selves and fool ourselves sometimes thinking being busy is doing what god expects don't get me wrong doing the right things for god is good but when you crowd so much in a day and you don't make time for the one who your doing this for then what good is it it's in the one one relationship you build with the father that truly empowers you to be the person he's created you to be. so just as we put aside time for family god should be the biggest part of your family he's the reason you have your family so i guess what I'm saying is my sleepless nights could because i just didn't slow down enough or put to many non essentials in the way and in my most unwarranted manner squeezed out time for the most important one in my life and that is the great I AM he is the only one that matters and i don't just want to touch Gods heart i want to truly know him and his son and the holy spirit . well i guess I'm finished just wanted to chat a bit. life has been a bit Topsy turfy for me i have been sick in the hospital and even through all this gods been there he is always there and god does use me but most of all i just want to be the blessing he intends me to be. so this might bless it might not sleepless in beebe. goodnight and gods speed